Seeking the Silver
The moveTHRU Blog
After my husband, Ian, died in march of 2019, I started writing to cope with his loss. My first blog ‘SEEKING THE SILVER’ is where my grief journey began. This blog is not only an additional moveTHRU resource, but it’s also an extension of Ian’s never ending optimism and positive outlook on life. I hope you’ll follow along for your own personal healing through my story and other moveTHRU community member’s stories of loss.
Latest Blog Posts
The death of the mom I used to be
The other night, I sat criss-crossed apple-sauce on our hard-wood floor watching my daughter Isabelle as she practiced her math worksheets kneeling by the coffee table. With concentration and delight,…
Grief Evolves: FOUR Shifts in my Journey
I’ve decided that comparisons like “easier” or “harder” / “better” or “worse” don’t really apply when it comes to grief. These words attempt to simplify a highly complex process…
Emily’s Top Grief Books
While everyone’s grief journey is unique, I’ve discovered that educating myself about grief has helped me better understand my own process. Learning about the psychology of grief and trauma, reading…
10 Tips to MOVE forward from loss
There is no right or wrong way to grieve — no rule book or guide! Ultimately, YOU are your best authority on your loss and your journey. However, with so…
My Story
*This article was originally written and published for Love What Matters. Read it here. * “365 days down, forever to go.” These words came from a letter my husband, Ian,…
Bella’s Story: Losing my Father to Brain Cancer
Did you know that it’s actually healing to talk about our deceased loved ones? Sharing what made our person so special and reliving our favorite memories of them helps us…
5 Tips to Survive Thanksgiving (while grieving)
Thanksgiving is just days away and anxiety might be setting in as we prepare to see what the festivities will look like this year … during a global pandemic. The…
How to Support A Grieving Child
I asked my 3-year-old daughter Izzy if she wanted to say goodbye to her daddy. Earlier that morning, her father Ian had just passed away from Uveal Melanoma. At first…
ANXIETY: How to moveTHRU
What am I going to do? The question haunted me. It kept me up at night. My husband had died six months ago. The shock had worn off. Reality was hitting…
FEAR: Let’s Talk About Death
I can still feel Ian’s arms wrapped around me, grasping me tightly — almost desperately. The tears stream down both of our faces as the doctor’s news settles in. We…
Surviving Suicide Prevention Month … As a Suicide Loss Survivor
September is National Suicide Prevention Month. While organizations and influencers flock to social media to raise awareness about taboo subject that is so misunderstood in our society, it can be…
Bereaved on my Child’s Birthday
We celebrated my daughter Isabelle’s fifth birthday last week. I thought I felt much better than I did last year — happy and excited for the festivities, as opposed to…
Back-to-School Tips for Widowed Moms
The first day of school looked different for us and likely the rest of the world this year. Izzy sat beside me tuning into virtual classrooms all morning long. I…
Dating As A Widow (Continued)
This quote sums up what being in a new, stable, and loving relationship is like for me now… as a widow. I’ve been practicing the act of surrender a lot…
The Loss of Equality
The recent Black Lives Matter movement woke me up to the inequalities around race and white privilege in our country that still exist today. I’m still taking time to learn,…
4 Tips to Find Freedom in Grief on July 4th
Milestones are tricky when it comes to grief and loss. We tend to “prepare” for the big ones like death-anniversaries, major holidays like Christmas, or your deceased person’s birthday, by…
Fatherless on Father’s Day
Father’s Day is just around the corner — a joyous, light-hearted day to recognize Dad for all that he does! But for many of us — those who have lost…
Living the Loss of Both Parents
When you experience one loss, death becomes more tangible — more real. You realize that no one is immune and that our loved ones can disappear from our lives in…
Exploring the Life-Death-Life Cycle
We’ve all heard the phrase with every ending comes a new beginning. Right? But did you ever really stop and think about it. Endings are inevitable. We fall in love,…
A Mother’s Day to Remember
As we mentioned in our last community post on grief & loss, talking about death can be difficult. Sometimes friends or acquaintances don’t want to talk about a deceased loved…
A Mother’s Loss
Death can be a difficult subject to talk about. It’s painful, unpleasant, emotional and hard. No one likes unhappy endings or tragic good-byes. But, when death becomes a part of…
Tips for Living with Grief
Last week I hosted an Instagram LIVE chat with Chloé Pestana on the subject of grief. Chloé and I had met at a New Year’s party in Oahu, just nine…
My First “Deathversary”
March 28, 2020 This photo was taken just as the sun was rising over the Mokoluas, shortly after Ian took his last breath of air on March 26, 2019. Within…
Letter to Theo
March 5, 2020 I got the idea to write my kids a letter for each of their birthdays after reading Nora McInerny’s book No Happy Endings. Just like Izzy’s letter,…
Dating is even more complicated as a widow
February 12, 2020 This article was originally published on Scary Mommy. Read the original post here. I’m a widow. I lost my husband, the father of my two children, to…
LONELINESS
February 7, 2020 About six months after my husband Ian died, the loneliness of my world without him really started to sink in. I would begin and end the day…
STUCK (Again)
January 27, 2020 When Ian first died, it felt like my entire world was falling apart. The range of emotions that surfaced combined with the fear and anxiety of starting…
Reflections on 2019: My Takeaways from Tragedy
CALM SEAS ARE WHERE YOU’LL FIND PEACE, BUT STORMS ARE WHERE YOU’LL FIND POWER. — @SPIRITDAUGHTER January 13, 2020 On January 1, 2019, I woke up groggy and tired, not…
GRIEF: How Movement Helps Us Move Forward
December 10, 2019 Please note: This article was originally published on Medium.com. Read below or by clicking here. When I lost my 32-year-old husband to a Uveal Melanoma eight months…
Feeling STUCK
After my husband Ian died, my entire world fell apart. I went from being a loving, supportive wife who stayed at home to raise her children, to assuming several new…
Time to “Move On”?
October 16, 2019 It was mid-July of 2013 when Ian and I decided to take a spontaneous trip from Miami, Florida down to Key West for the weekend. We endured…
Letter to a Tiger Princess
WHILE WE TRY TO TEACH OUR CHILDREN ALL ABOUT LIFE, OUR CHILDREN TEACH US WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT. — ANGELA SCHWINDT September 17, 2019 Like I said in my…
Time to Heal
TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS September 4, 2019 It was a beautiful, sunny morning in my childhood home of Durango, CO. My parents, the kids and I had driven down for…
Shine
I HOPE YOU FIND A LOVE THAT’S TRUE SO THE MORNING LIGHT CAN SHINE ON YOU I HOPE YOU FIND WHAT YOUR LOOKING FOR SO YOUR HEART IS WARM FOREVER…
The Cracks Begin to Show
LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND JUST WALK AWAY WHEN IT’S OVER AND MY HEART BREAKS AND THE CRACKS BEGIN TO SHOW — “CRACKS” BY FLUX PAVILION August 14, 2019 As the…
A Special Reunion
THIS POST IS THE FIRST IN A SERIES ABOUT GRATITUDE. THERE IS NO DENYING THE UTMOST TRAGEDY IN LOSING MY HUSBAND IAN, BUT HIS DEATH IS A CONSTANT REMINDER TO…
Reflections of the Future
“A WOMAN IS LIKE A TEA BAG. YOU NEVER KNOW HOW STRONG SHE IS UNTIL SHE GETS IN HOT WATER.” — ELEANOR ROOSEVELT July 18, 2019 Since Ian’s passing, I’ve…
My First Anniversary Without My Husband
WE ARE ALL A LITTLE WEIRD, AND LIFE IS A LITTLE WEIRD, AND WHEN WE FIND SOMEONE WHOSE WEIRDNESS IS COMPATIBLE WITH OURS, WE JOIN UP WITH THEM IN MUTUAL…
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